Mercy in Disguise
I spent much of the last few years of my life in agony. I have labored with a struggle to overcome relentless depression, anxiety and loss. It began after my first miscarriage in 2013. It’s hard to even write that, knowing the last 4 years of my life have been in suffering, but the miscarriage really was the start of it all. I struggled to grapple with my feelings. I had known this child in my womb for a mere couple weeks... was it even right for me to be in such mourning? The miscarriage left me raw and fearful. I knew what it meant to loose everything. I had always had what I felt like was blessing in my life. Nothing truely terrible had ever happened to me. And try to accept that kind of loss, the loss of a child, the loss of the beautiful life I wanted to do desperately hold... it was too much to bear. I began counseling. There were a lot of issues I needed to come to terms with and work through if I was going to heal properly. For my own personal privacy I won’t share that in deta...